46 days

What will it be like to be skinny again? I am not sure what to expect. I know it will be hard work to get there and that I will be in shape. I can be real honest I am not real comfortable with attention from other people, especially men. I sometimes think I use my weight to hide myself from the world. But why do I hide is the question. The weight really started when I had some really emotional relationships. I wanted to feel safe and the turmoil in my life made very hard to achieve it. Food not only gave me comfort, but my weight gave me a barrier against a relationship that could hurt me.

I think that making the decision to have surgery is hard as what happens after you start to lose weight. You have know that you are in the right place in your life to make the surgery successful and that the people around are there to support and love you. You have to understand that it is not only a change in your life and the way you view it, but it also changes the way people close to you see you and might even impact how they view food.